life.laugh.love

I want to know the reasons of why people give up on me. I have so many questions in my head right now. Why do they push me away? Is it because I push them away first? Am I not good enough? Do they think I’m not like them? Am I boring? Why am I so different? Will someone ever love me? Will I ever belong? Why can’t I be more like them? Why can’t I have a normal conversation like a normal person? Do I disgust them? Do they think I’m weird? Why am I not like other girls? Am I too naive, too innocent? Will someone ever take me seriously? Do they even care about me? Where are my friends when I need I just feel so alone right now and no one even knows.

I hate promises. They seem so perfect at first , then they just explode and turn out to be fake. Never make a promise with me , too many “friends” have made promises and then abandoned me on them. I can’t take that anymore. So.. instead of a promise , just prove it. Prove you’ll be here , prove you love me. Prove to me that you’re more then a promise.